Fun filled day!! =D Met minmin like so early? to accompany her for her NUS science faculty talk.. CONGRATS once again for getting in!!! =) I wanna join you next year!!! Went to watch 'Over the Hedge' after that at Lido.. wanted to watch Da Vinci!!! But the earlier slots were sold out.. hahaha.. Over the Hedge is really cute la.. but a lot of kids ah?




















My photography skill's not bad huh? =P



















Hot right minmin? wahhaha...



















Erm ok.. lol..














Oh dear what's with that bald patch on my head? hahaha















Went to celebrate tiang's bday after that.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY once again! =D
(front row 2nd from left)















Wanna know what we got him? $100 Ed Hardy voucher!!! But SAD. He didn't cry..
















Together with the choir friends! =D Henry wei da.. took photo for us.. hahaha..

Dad came to fetch me and a few others.. So wei da.. As usual he kept talking on the way home.. haha.. So excited for his bday.. 1st June!! So i'm gonna miss the first night of Emerge =( Gg to a rest. at east coast.. He invited Mr Chay as well! So shy.. whaha..

*It's ok to be a sua gu*

YAY!!! We survived this arduous week!!! =D *CheErs* 2 SPAs and 2 maths tests.. Tmr's break is so timely! =D Everyone was all smilesss today...~~














That's Derek.. V *peace* He's very spontaneous one.. wahaha..














XLS.. I donno what was with that bandaged finger.. =) And no I didn't pull it!















Xenia!















I love her tapeworm!!!















Bats!!! Right before our eyes!














Stop stealing their food please!














Erm.. I'm actually not very proud of my blubber.. Yusu stop touching it.. =)

After school me linda xenia went to queensway to order class tshirt.. Very drama mama laa... Long story ah.. Leave it to yusu to tell you all.. hahaha.. Me and her ended up having our dinner at 9 at the coffeeshop near school.. Had to ken suan mei in the bus.. wahah.. so wei da right? haha... Don't say I treat you all bad ah... *grIn* Esp you-know-who.. haha..

*It's ok to walk round and round..*

Oh I just thought of this.. Ever wonder why life is like a rollercoaster ride? Sometimes it gets you feeling so high.. and the next moment it slams you right down.. At times you don't even have time to gasp for air! Let me use the analogy of a dugong/mermaid.. or rather its/her tail.. To get into another destination it/she needs to move its/her tail up and down.. Same for us, we need situations that bring us both high and low to move on in life.. So if you feel that you are constantly living in a lalaland where everything seems to float by you so smoothly then you should start questioning if you're erm actually living? hahaha..

*It's ok to feel down*

Ahhhhhhh guess what time I slept last night??? 4am! (or rather this morning) madnessss... I couldn't sleep! Cos I took an extra long nap before that.. wahha.. anyway, today is the mark of a chem prac-less life ahead.. YES! No more chemistry practicals FOREVER! =D Just regurgitated out this morning for an hour.. So during Gp after that I was kinda shagged.. as well as for the rest of the day.. So i will tend to talk nonsense.. And I mean it.. I didn't even know what was I talking esp during GP.. wahhaha.. And during bio course I was suddenly particularly interested in mouse wahhaha.. Don't blame me hor xls =D Hormonal changes.. =)

Tmr is bio prac.. Another vomiting session.. So tonight i'm gonna feed myself crazy with those notes.. and my friend actually suggested to start a bonfire after prac.. Burn all our notes wahha.. And and after school guess where I'm going?! JAMMING!!! So cool can?! My first time la.. whha.. Tiang called me ytd cos they were looking for a keyboardist.. I told him I nv play a keyboard before.. as in those chords.. But nvm there's a start to everything! =D *loOking forward*

*It's ok to express your emotions*

So many tempatations recently.. Need to guard my heart well.. God help me!!

*It's ok to say no*

Sia la.. NDP rehearsal started already.. I have this friend inside who is the flag bearer! So proud of him! Erm.. ya he told me I should feel proud cos i know 1 out of the 34 flag bearers wahah.. sia la..... Actually since young I've admired those people marching in the parade.. Like so smart.. Now I know how they choose! mostly based on experience and physical appearance.. Height BMI built.. no wonder all have the same look whaha.. Erm.. remember when I was younger.. *so embarrassing to tell* I actually sang the national anthem and recited the pledge at HOME.. with PRIDE.. lol!!! goOdness.. Gone are those days.. Ah.. I believe it's not only me! LOL.. Cmon let's admit! lol~

*It's ok to wear white and red during National day*

I tried not to look...
There was this naggy feeling inside...
But I didn't look...

I was playing "Can't help falling in love" on the piano just now.. and goodness.. My hair literally stood.

Lyrics
Wise men say only fools rush in
But I can't help falling in love with you.

Shall I stay would it be a sin
If I can't help
Falling in love with you.

Like a river flows
Surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
Somethings are meant to be.

Take my hand
Take my whole life too

For I can't help falling in love with you
For I can't help falling in love with you

*It's ok to make a fool out of yourself*

Aww.. didn't get to meet my fuhua clique.. cos 2/5 couldn't make it.. But then again.. I wasn't informed of the chem remedial after school which ended at ard 5:15.. thanks XLS......... haha.. Nvm, I had dinner with my bro and dad instead and we went orchard shopping.. But I ended up shopping solo cos they wanted to see the guys' stuff.. Nvm.. Better! haha. Met again at Jack's place to eat.. It's become our family tradition to go there.. Only that branch.. The one at the side of citibank.. and it's our tradition to drink the mushroom soup there.. it's like shiok. haha..Bro threw tantrum.. so went home earlier.. oh weeeellll.......

Pst phil!! He's really cool. Friday's msg was about prayer.. I was totally impacted.. Sis JL always tells us.. "prayer is not about 'God i want this and that.. God bless me with this and that..'" Prayer is communicating (DIlogue) with God by giving Him your undivided attention.. A prayer can go like this "God I know your grace is sufficient for me, I want to learn to lean on Your strength.." "God, I'm not really good in this, but I know that nothing is impossible with You" "God if You want me to do this, I know You will provide a way for me." or simply " God, there's none like You.. I love You. Really!" =)

Life with God is just... exceptional.. It's really extraordinary! Sometimes when I reached home from school, i feel so helpless.. like i can't really catch up.. So I go into my room and start to cry.. and man.... God's presence will be in the room and I will be very comforted.. and have this peace in my heart. It's quite hard to explain the feeling except when we actually experienced it first-hand... And thank God I've been passing most of my tests now.. =)

As for the BV audition, I've decided to sing other songs.. cos the previous 2 are quite difficult given my blocked nose.. which came back when i had a cold.. So I'll be singing 'There's anointing in the air' (Chorus can be found in my friendster haha) and "Turn your eyes upon Jesus" I simply love the lyrics and it's simple-yet-nice melody.. Anyway I nv really like the lyrics of 'Becos of u' cos it's not really me to be so affected by a guy to do the things the lyrics says.. Haha.. Hmm.. Mariah Carey's songs are really nice but they are like so custom-made for only Mariah.. Very singer-unfriendly hahaha.. And oh yes! Yesterday when I turned on the TV on channel 5.. Guess who I saw?!?! Yup! MICHAEL BUBLE! He was having a concert.. and man.. that killer voice.... I blast my tv, so much so that I thot he was singing to me only... wahahaha.. He sings effortlessly and so naturally.. I simply love his voice! *cheers* I can safely say I like almost all his songs! Hope he comes back to Sg again for another concert! I will get the front seat and melt there.. =P

Anyway, I got into finals for 100m.. wahaha.. quite unbelievable for some right? haha..
Me: Sorry ankle! =P

*It's ok to be laughed at.*

AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
Happiness!! I'm going for a shopping trip with my dad tmr! Totally sponsored! =) !!!
Indeed, a little becomes much in the Master's hands.. PTL!

Meeting up a few of my sec. sch clique for dinner before that.. =) Haven't seen them for SOo long la.. Used to crap around so much in school.. Though at that time most of us didn't exactly like the school.. The 4 metal buttons on our uni.. Morning assembly.. combined humanities..... But we enjoyed laughing at long skirts and high socks... Bullying Lack... teasing each other abt our crushes (so shy) erm basically teasing everyone about anything wahhaha.. We were good at that la. One thing about sec school, there was always some rumours going around.. haha.. Forever~ Once a week there'd be a new couple formed.. some relationship break downs.. Some confessions.. Some rejections.. wahhaa.. And since we were the pioneers, we knew more or less everyone in school and so news spread very fast. =) Looking back there's a sense of nostalgia and I know that those times can only be replayed in my memory...
Why must the grass always seem greener on the other side??

*It's ok to smile at a stranger*

Corrinne May! I'm so fond of her now! Why didn't anyone told me how nice her voice and songs are.. Haha and the lyrics as well.. Very important.. Go check them out..

Sick today.. Bio prac doesn't help at all.. But thanks minmin for encouraging me.. =) And yes I will see a dentist real soon.. =P

How I miss those smiles
I was captivated
Certainly.
It was as if the whole world
Came to a standstill..
Then I was snapped back into reality
No, stop dreaming..
Those were not meant for you..

You know, most of the time I don't have anything in my mind.. Like I seldom 'talk to myself'.. I don't think a lot in a way.. So most of the time when I'm walking my mind's really blank. Am I normal or what? haha.. And most of the time I'm in my own world! But I'm still not oblivious of what is happening around me.. So if you hear me singing to myself..... Don't poke my bubble. hahaha.. I wish I can sing everywhere I go.. and that people will just ignore me.. But people always comment... So I restrict to just humming... I also like it when people sing to themselves.. Doesn't that make the world a much pleasant place? =) Doesn't matter if it's way out of tune! As long as the person is enjoying himself and liking that moment.. Go ahead! =)

But xiao lao shu.. thanks for that encouragement.. =) You know what la. I was quite surprised actually cos people seldom tell me that..

U know there's this song that goes like this "I'm.. I'm gonna soak up the sun.. gonna tell everyone to lighten up.." (that's about all I know) Yea. Life has so much more to offer... Woo, found another "singleton" recently hahaha.. My cg member.. 20 yrs old.. Cool~~ Nv has a bf.. Yea, must enjoy our singlehood now!!! That's like only 1/4 of our lives.. for the 3/4 you're gonna be stuck with a guy! I don't mind actually, if I really love him.. But isn't singlehood so fun?? No worries about that sort of things.. So free.. I donno what's the rush to get one.. haha.. Due to limited 'good' guys? Ah no no no I think there're plenty... But girls understand that a good guy doesn't mean he's suitable for her... Right? Maybe the 'lock and key' hypothesis works in this case as well? Hee..

"Because of you, I don't know how to let anyone else in.."
Excerpt from "Because of you"-Kelly Clarkson
Hmmm...
Silly? Maybe..

xiao ser and weiying
















NO NO NO!! It was meant to be a joke! I was kiddingly posing in front of the cam which was timed and tested for the grp pic, so I didn't know what happened behind me and 'click' the cam went off wahhaha.. Eeyerr... Sorry ah.. haha..














Ah... here you go.. N256!!!!!!

Hais, problematic throat.. and nose.. =(
Pls don't let anything happen when audition is nearing!!!!!
Maybe I should change the songs that I chose? Plan B.. cos I can't go high with a blocked nose and sore throat! =( Any suggestion???

Felt an urge to run today during pc.. so I ran 2 rounds.. Fatal mistake! My ankle swelled a little after that.. hais.. Why so fragile.. =(

Anyway Xenia she rocks... Never fail to brighten my day in school.. I'm a fan of her tapeworm! hahaha..

I told my dad about my 'brilliant' plan about the NAFA thingy last night.. He was quite surprised haha.. but he told me to go uni first to get my 'livelihood' (the cert..) then go NAFA.. Ok ya maybe that's better.. He had dinner with Mr Chay last night at h.v and Mr Chay advised me to go overseas to study and work.. More opportunities and gain more experience.. I was thrilled at the thought but then again.. who's gg to provide the finances!

Went to the sinseh ytd for the umpteenth time due to my left ankle.. Badly swollen.. The sinseh was a Chinese lady as in really from China haha.. she was good la.. 15 mins chop chop done.. =) But of cos it was painful la but shiok type.. Ok a bit ironic.. Finally get over and done with.. Next plan is to see the dentist.. =( Phobia!

borrowed a recorder from minshan today.. recorded a few pieces in.. But when I hear.. not very nice leh. Nvm.. Small beginning.. =) Wanna compile the nicer few then make into an album! hahaha.. Stay tune! hahahaha..

Today we talked about stress management during civics and I was thinking what kind of stress do I have?? I couldn't really think of anything to say so I said "buying presents"~ Lame laa.. But it can be quite leh. Especially when it's last minute and we have a budget.. and we don't know what the person wants.. Hor Bird? haha.. For me stress normally arises when I don't have enough time to do what I ought to do.. Other than that nothing much la.. sally mentioned "piano exam" which is more of nervousness for me la.. The environment doesn't do any help.. You go into this cold room with a piano and a table and chair for the ang moh examiner.. The examiner sits behind you as you play.. There's not even a window.. Aiyo. Why like that?

Yesterday was the track events.. and I got in 2nd! wahha.. U know why? Cos I was in the 2nd heat and there were only 4 girls! hahahaha.. So there were only 12 girls in the A division running 100m.. haha.. But shiok la. I like the type of adrenaline rush when the 'bang' goes off.. wahha.. However I sort of limited my own mindset cos I thought 100m is quite far and so I was afraid to really chiong at the beginning as my stamina is not that good.. Nvm try again on 3rd June! =)

And I haven't gotten over the thought of me going for bv audition!!! Goodness.. wahhaa.. Steph is teaching me how to listen for parts.. Something which I'm really weak in.. The audition requires us to listen for parts and sing it out! Goodness.. That's my main concern la.. But nvm I'm going to do my best anyway.. =)

I seriously can't wait for 23rd Nov to come!!! =( School is seriously restricting me in so many ways.. I wanna be a counsellor/social worker next time but my friend told me i'll be poor the rest of my life haha.. Come to think of it it's true to a certain extent.. The starting pay is around 2400, but the increment is not much lor. But I like what. I've thought of becoming a doctor/nurse as well.. But the way I see Jing memorises all the names of medicines, I was so turned off haha.. However my greatest dream is to be a pianist actually.. So I'm going to continue my piano lesson after my exam.. Actually a part of me wanna go NAFA like steph.. Should I follow my heart and break away from the norm of wanting to go NUS/NTU? I'm getting excited from the thought of gg nafa la! I'll get to learn so much more about music and piano.. and singing.. aww.. Ultimate.. then i'll be so much closer to my dreamS of being a BV and a pianist! How exciting la.. I'm smiling at the thought now la. hahaha.. =) Then me and steph can go around the world to perform.. LOL.. awww... Then I can give away free tickets to my concert.. LOL! Then must really set up AFC and find a manager.. hahaha.. Okok. Ultimate.. haha.. Doesn't hurt to dream big right? =) Promise me you'll come support me ok.. wahahaha.. I promise to sign on your shirt! LOL~

I'm so excited about the audition la!!! Singing 'Because of you' - Kelly Clarkson and 'Extraodinary' =) ! Hope my bro can tolerate me =) but I don't care if he doesn't .. =) 3 more weeks! Ytd I bought this antihistamine drug to cure my permanently blocked nasal canal and today it's so much better! I can breathe 'fully'! =)

Today my dad fetched me back from expo.. and true enough like what bird 'prophesied', he talked throughout the entire journey to jurong.. So I just listened lor. He told me while he was walking in Suntec recently, he met his 20 yrs ago manger.. who went on to become the previous MP in charge of Tanah Merah.. Mr Chay sth.. Now he's the CEO of some big company and the GM of UTUC Income.. So this Mr Chay talked to my dad and they exchanged numbers.. And he asked my dad if he needed any job, he could recommend him.. This is better than striking 4D la. My dad always complains that he always meet ghosts, finally an 'angel' now.. Ok anyway, if he gets the job, he'll be working in the town council la! How exciting can that be.. then after my A level I can seek that Mr Chay for jobs as well!! =) Save all my trouble looking.. Shiokness.. I really wanna thank God for so many open doors for me! =)

And tmr!! I'll be having my 100m race.. have to travel all the way to Bedok just to run 100m!!! Aiyo haha.. but very exciting la. =)! I'm so not a long distance runner.. No stamina haha.. Small lung capacity ah.. haha..

And who says 'Life begins here..' (JJ's propaganda)
















This is the 'Isolation Room' I talked about.. PINK can hor? haha.. I will try my best to maintain it.. If really cannot I must hire u leh... My room is gone case already.. Think you also can't do anything haha.. So not C in this aspect haha..

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So exciting la!!!!!!! I'm going for the BV audition on the 23rd!!!! One step closer to my dream!! =)!!

This week has been relatively fun for me~ =)
Wednesday!! Went to celebrate alice's 19th bday.. At the Sakae!! And she treated us la! THANKSSS.. We totally rocked the whole place!! So shy.. When our grp of girls gets together.. Skin has to be thick enough.. hahaha.. We bought her this Adidas bikini set which she tried to wear on the spot.. LOL.. and.. LOL~ Ok la don't expose her.. LOL~.. Anyway, I had a really great time with u girls.. All of you totally rock my world! =) !












































So cute hor? =)

You know what messy is?
















Now you know... *shrugs*
But thankfully we have a free computer table from Courts and so my bro gave me his old table.. yay~ I really need that!!! Now I can study on an empty table.. in an empty room with only an iron board and a bed w/o bedsheet.. hehehe.. and I shall name that an Isolation Room..



















So yan dao... wiu woo weet~



















Oops.. we missed out Lucy!



















The pretty evil witch..

I love The Chronicles of Narnia!!! It's so brilliantly written.. Though it was meant for children but I really love CS Lewis' imagination and creativity!! Erm ok I know it's been out for quite some time.. but I still love to rave about it.. =P So bear with me. =)

HAha.. xls I don't think you know what I'm waiting for la.. never mention it anywhere before.. very shen shen mi mi one.. hahaha.. Anyway today what I said to sally was just joking la.. hope she doesn't take it too personally.. But really quite happy la.. 2 hours leh. haha.. also speaking up for all of you lor wahahaha.. But seriously she's a good teacher la. I am always very amazed at how much knowledge she has.. It's me la i'm such a hard student for her.. Nvm la I will apologise to her...

Anyway, sometimes people can really get into our nerves.. what I will normally do is simply to keep quiet and ignore that person.. and walk away... though i may be boiling inside.. No point arguing or fighting to see who wins.. Ya it's good to be nonchalent sometimes.. With that I-can't-be-bothered attitude.. If you really look around.. there are so many things or people that you don't agree with.. and if we are always trying so hard to prove our points.. then life will be so.. erm.. boring? cos we could have done sth more interesting.. that's why most of the time I feel so free.. Free from all these unnecessary things.. It's very impt to learn to forgive and forget.. Though sometimes it's so hard.. but once we are able to do that.. we're doing yourself so much good as well..

Next time if ever someone comes up to you and say anything bad.. we must remain in a calm composture.. and say "Hey I think you look good in that shirt!" Wahah.. though it may be a bit fake but I think that will shut that person up instantly. Hopefully.. Ok nvm just ignore me..

I wish that one day someone will come up to me and say "The wait was worth it."
Yea I've been waiting so so long... I feel silly at times... Real silly... Well, they say good things don't come easy... But they also say that all good things come to an end... Oh man.. But like I said, I don't care what they say... But I don't know what to do either! So am still the 'confused kid' that bro jeff mentioned years ago? Hmmm.. I don't know.. Some issues are not for me to decide.. I wish I can though.. ok, Sally will go 'STATE YOUR STAND CLEARLY!!!' If only life is as simple as black and white... Then there will not be any argumentative eassays to write.. and Sally can just retire into her shell... But why do I talk about her here! It's REDUNDANT! See, I've just let her down after all her hard work... Ok, I mustn't give up... I must make her proud someday so I can give her CREDIT at the end of my A lvl... She'll love it... Sorry for digressing, my main point was actually about waiting.. I think she'll just draw a thick red stroke across my page.. Ya sometimes I can get as confusing as this chunk of meaningless words........

It's thursday! Why did I enjoy myself so much today..??? Weird.. All thanks to mock fish, zy and ms! LOL.. We actually stayed back after lesson at 4 to.. SING and DANCE... Goodness.. lol~ Fish.. I hope you feel much better after that.. haha.. Don't care what they say la.. They can say whatever they wanna say.. None of our business.. You won't falter right? Saw a friend's 'nick' on msn which says "Why comment on things you haven't experienced before?" Han nor.. Know that at the end of the day... still got ME! hahaha.. But next time don't anyhow touch k.. HAHA..

Anyway... today is also a special day for a special friend..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALICE!!!!!!!!!!! *grIn*
Someone actually wanted me to bring FLOWERS and CAKE and BANNER to her school!!!
Wahaha.. Ya la actually I thought of that la.. lol.. so be comforted knowing that it's the thought that counts.. LOL~
Faster get your driving license la! Then drive yourself to my house to drive me to the nearest shop to let you choose what u want.. then I buy lor LOL~ Very mean hor........ Just kidding la.. In my heart actually I love you de... =)
Anyway, thanks for bringing me so much joy and laughter! There can never be a dull moment with you around! So sexy some more.. wahaha.. K la let u win la lol..

I survived mundane monday!!! =) *cheers* Well, actually everyday is quite mundane..

Today I just realised I have a neighbour who is a teacher in jj.. We live wall-to-wall next to each other.. haha.. We always leave home at the same time and so always take the same lift.. I only found him familiar but never thought much about anything since we are only neighbours.. But when I saw him in school today.. I was like 'Oh! So it's him!' I will try to be more friendly to him the next time... Nearly crushed him this morning cos I was nearly late so I hurriedly closed the lift doors and he 'siam'ed just in time to go in.. Oh no.. lol..

Today is also the start of poly life for a lot of people.. My bro included.. Zzz have to snatch toilet with him again.. He takes ages to get ready! Goodnesss... Recently he took $100 from my mum to buy 'poly stuff'.. Turned out, he went to buy clothes and shoe.. lol.. nonsense leh.. Haha.. good excuse siaaa... And no I didn't teach him that. Haha..

I URGENTLY NEED A SECRETARY!!!

Sigh..

Madness!!!
Me and Bird got into the semi-finals for Spelling Bee! That's 700 more words added..
Sally must be so proud of me... ...~

Anyway, today!!! I had some life back!!! =) ! Spent some mad moments with the girls.. LOL~ Craziness.. We were at PCC and didn't buy any drinks cos we were 'waiting for alice'.. And ya the staff gave us some 'looks'.. and that crazy bird came up with this crazy joke.. When alice comes then we will 'bye'.. Wahaha.. LOL.. anyway I can't believe pink n bird could finish this big bag of candy mix... They are so sweet la~



















Power Ranger transformer fun ok.. Childhood toy.. haha..





















Stop acting silly leh.. Alice please...
LOL~ And next time don't make me laugh can..
Try not to la. this is meant to be a scary pic la..

Chris Tomlin- Come Home Running

Oh heart of mine, why must you stray?
From one so fair you run away
And one more time you have to pay
The heaviness of needless shame

Oh heart of mine, come back home
You've been too long out on your own
And He's been there all along
Watching for you down the road

So come home running
His arms are open wide
His name is Jesus
He understands
He is the answer
You are looking for
So come home running
Just as you are

Oh child of God so dearly loved
And ransomed by the Savior's blood
And called by name, Daughter and Son
Wrapped in the robe of righteousness

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Currently my favourite song.. Wish I can play it here~
Many times, we try to perform the one-man show... Only to end up with a messed up heap.. (like my room haha) Let's admit it, we are weak. But I'm comforted knowing that I can run to God my Provider.. And I'm glad He has made a promise not to leave or forsake me.. =)

At a coffeeshopp...
X: Eh Uncle, one tehsi cold!
Uncle: Ok
The next minute he came back holding a pepsi and a coke..

Hmm.. maybe I should start a countdown from today onwards? Make me excited only~~~ hahaha..

Liberation: 233 days to go

Man.. It does seem forever..

While I was lying on my bed yesterday, I received a revelation..

You know dreams, as in visions and ambitions, only live as long a time as we allow them to. And we know that anything and everything that lives, grows. So let us keep dreaming! And they will keep growing.. And before we know it, they will jump into existence right before our very eyes..

I'm starting to wonder if my bed has any special power.. hahaha.. This gives me every reason to go to bed..

Ben & Jerry's

What BnJ's flavour are you??
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Mine's "Chocolate Therapy" hahaha..

Get a free cone at BnJ's!!!
25th April (Tues) 12 to 6pm at all stores except Sentosa
Don't miss it!!!

You know sometimes I lie awake at night, filled with anticipation as well as excitement thinking of all the fun things that I'm gonna do after 29th Nov. So deprieved now haha.. And I'm so glad it's April already.. Most probably I'll go back to work at Ben n Jerry's and definitely going to hk with bro jeff and da sao! I was thinking of setting up a small booth to sell things haha.. Just for fun~ But for now, there's nothing much I can do except school stuff.. Really miss hanging out with the girls! Anyway, I found a new chill out place--the library next to my block! The building is new... The books look new... and it's not crowded. You know how irritating it can get when people talk loudly in the library? And when their hps ring with multifarious tones and melodies.. Ok they may sound nice but the library is certainly not a place to appreciate that.. Oh man.. Can't believe I'm saying all this.. HAHA.. Tell me what's wrong with me!

Ok that aside, I had this revelation recently. Let me use the analogy of balls.. You know balls, they range from a table-tennis ball to a basketball etc.. But a basketball can't say to a pingpong ball that it is better than the pp ball though they vary in size and strength and everything else. Well, superficially it may seem that the bball is better, however it completely loses its capability once you use it on a table tennis table. Each has their own game to play.
Likewise for people, I can't say that I'm better than you or vice versa cos we are all designed to 'play different games'. You play yours and I play mine.. You have strengths that I don't have and vice versa. So there's really no need to compare and always trying to be the 'better' one.. If you know what I mean..

I bring this up perhaps because in school, people are always trying to overclimb each other.. It's good in a way.. But the down side is when you start measuring your self-worth by your academic results.. Then it's not so good anymore.

You might think I don't look
But deep inside
In the corner of my mind
Im attached to you
Im weak
Its true
Cos im afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cos my heart keeps falling faster

You dont know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
Im afraid to move
Im weak
Its true
Im just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?

-excerpts from True-Ryan Cabrera

Always playing on Class 95 and never fail to catch my attention hee..

my com!! giving me so many surprises recently.. aiyo..

Anyway..ya a lot of things to update.. so i'll make it sweet and short. HAHA..
Firstly, wanna congratulate PINK and STEPH once again for their water baptism last sunday! =)



















And my bday! hee.. thanks dear friends~ You really made my day! I felt like the most blessed girl in the world that night.. not because of the very nice gifts I received or the dinner but because I was with the people that matter to me.. =) Anyway, quite a lot of ppl asked me how did i feel about turning 19. i feel the numbers are turning faster than I expected. That's all la? Nothing much other than that.. but very looking forward to what my future has to offer.. though I have happy good teenage memories and fun but I believe my future is gonna be better hee~














Kelvin was supposed to be in btw da ren and jon de.. nvm i'll cut and paste him in lol..

Anyway, in my previous entry (which disappeared into the www) I mentioned about vday and how I felt indifferent that day. hahaha.. no bf.. chem test the next day.. spoiler~ I said if chemistry and aileen are 2 lines, we are 2 skew lines. Well, I'm trying to be at least parallel to it.. but we can never intersect.

Should I save my tears and move on? Or hang on like a L....

=) I like today! Delirious was awesome. Martin Smith's voice was woo la la~ But most importantly, God was there. Oh, choir wasn't needed today! So can spend more time with cg.. =) I really love my cg la. =) Awesome people~ =)

Anyway, I've been dling a lot of songs recently.. Most of them are songs that I haven't heard of. I think it's fun? Cos you'll never know if you're going to like it.. so it's kinda like opening a gift hahaha.. Came across a lot of nice ones.. This is one of them: http://www.cowboylyrics.com/tabs/wright-michelle/take-it-like-a-man-183.html
I like the lyrics.. it's humourous in a discrete manner.. wahha..

How does it feel to go back to school after 4 days of havoc? Bad. It's like heaven and.. ____
I walked home today and I cried on the way.. Don't ask me why..
I was listening to "Spirit Come"..
One of the songs goes like this:

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Be still and know that He is God
Be still and know that He is God
There is no other
There is no other

Rest quietly, Oh my soul
Be still and listen for the comfort of His voice
Be confident the Lord is on your side
Your salvation's drawing near...
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And I cried even more..

AAAAAAAAHHHHHH.... Really really enjoyed these 2 days!!! It's like a much needed retreat for me! Spent new year's eve at my grandma's place for reunion and watched a movie with dad n bro! FEARLESS! very nice!!!!!!!! Though it's a wushu movie but the storyline is actually more than that la.. it speaks of sportsmanship.. And at some points it was actually quite touching till i teared.. heee~~ And there were some quite gross scenes eek. But on the whole, it was a show worth your 9.50.. And after the show we went over to Holland V! My dad and bro went to Eskibar and I joined a few choir members at TCC!! Happiness! Wahaha.. Very fun~~ Thanks people~ We stayed till 3 plus? WAhah~














A game of 'heart attack' ended up with Jon having 7 cards?! LOL real power.

Oh ya, today is CNY.. XING NIAN KUAI LE! So funny u know, I greeted my neighbour ytd "Auntie, xing nian kuai le" Know what she replied? "Ni yei kuai le" WAHA.. Joker.. Anyway, this morning it was so hard to wake up!!! But have to ma.. Went to my paternal grandma's house first.. There were 2 other families, so I received 3 angbaos~ WAhah.. We ate the traditional dish my ah ma always cooks on cny.. But the families were always gossiping la. BORING.. So I sat at the corner whistling. This is not what cny is all about I think. A time to gather and bring other people down? To make yourself appear higher? But of cos, I remained nonchalant.. again.. So that's not the fun side..

Next I went to my maternal ah ma jia!!! This is more re nao and happening la!! The only hard thing was, like I mentioned, opening the door and walking in! I literally took a deep breath and plucked up my courage to do so.. The sight of so many pairs of shoes outside was kinda intimidating la. So, as expected, when i stepped in, all were curious to see who ma.. so all turned and looked! OH NOoo.. shyness. I don't like this type of attention la wahah.. they commented blablabla.. aiyooo so i sort of "went into hiding" wahaha.. anyway, I had a good time catching up with them! My ah ma and ah gong so loving.. So much so that.. when they first spoke to me just now I teared secretly.. It was just normal conversation but their love was overwhelming la. Silly me.. If I didn't remember wrongly, they only asked me to go eat.. but that alone was filled with love la. Later at night, me my cousin and ah ma were flipping through some old photos and we saw my grandparents' wedding photo! My ah ma told me she was very pretty when she was young! Wahah.















See! Nice features !! Her skin condition is still good for her age! haha

Cousinsss~

Potential model.. wahaha..

Potential charmer..

Oh today we had a half day~ I went to school!!! Haha! something to be quite surprised about.. anyway, we watched some performances and ya that was it.. One thing I felt very strongly about is the irony that the Malays were more excited about this entire thing than the Chinese!! Is cny becoming just another passe 'event'? I hope not! Well, for me I no longer look forward to cny as much as I did say 10 years ago? But of course the angbao enthusiasm is still high la. HAHA.. Anyway that's not the point.. hahaha.. Maybe it's having to meet my relatives? They are nice people but I feel quite awkward actually waha.. and they always tell me the same things.. wahaha! The only thing I don't like is having to open the front door and walk in.. cos that's when all will stare at you and comment.. wahaha!!! but anyway, this yr, I'm gonna try to shake off that blase attitude and brush up on my mandarin.. hahaha..
















Xing nian kuai le! Wan shi ru yi! Shen ti jian kang!


































That's our modern dance performance.. It was SO sexy, I thought it was provocative.. But it was nice nice nice~















A sea of red.. that's our choir.. oh they sang dong dong dong chiang as well!! LOL! Minus the HEY though hahaha!














Outside our civics classroom Haha.. after a few failed attempts to take this pic ourselves due to lack of shooting skills.. wahah..

wahaha.. ytd's service was super funny~~~ Esp the choir!!! WAha.. I couldn't help but kept laughing on stage when we sang 'dong dong dong chiang HEY dong dong dong chiang HEY' LOL!!! So funny la the guys.. then the 'gong xi gong xi gong xi ni ya' part we had to do that action ma.. So funny also!!! Cos we gong xi so many times! Aiyo! lol~ went back with yuxuan after that so funny also la...... We ate the gam in the train! lol! Then he walked me home.. HAHA the last time any guy walked me home was 25-12-04 LOL!

oh today is another funny day la.. Though it started quite sianly.. chemistry....... then maths test... but yu su she saved my day la LOL! Did the silly acts made me laugh so hard.. HAHA! If ever, there's an audition for 'The Emperor's New Clothe', she should go la. HAHA..

But it's quite a melancholy day as well.. when I heard people talked behind my friend's back. (telling me, in fact) Ya he acts a little different.. Talks a little different.. People label him a gay? metrosexual? sissy? I don't really care. He's my friend. It just reflects the type of person you are.. So I prefer to remain nonchalant.. again. Maybe I should explain to them? Then I thought again, it wouldn't be much use anyway. Maybe it's just their loss, for not digging deeper under his skin to unravel the beauty inside..

Oh guess what? We ran 3.2k again!!! Can't believe they will treat us like that wahah.. but the feeling was shiokness. I feel running is more of a psychological battle rather than a physical one.. If you're able to conquer your I-can't-run-that-far mindset then you will be able to surprise yourself by running even faster than you thought you could..

Anyway, hmm.. Have to apologize to those people who are disturbed by me recently.. I think I'm a little impatient nowadays... There are days when I don't feel like wasting any time doing unnecessary things 'cos the thought of not accomplishing the important things yet makes me wanna rush home.. Hope you'll understand.. I will look into this..

My nonchalance has once again saved me.
I'm not those who care about the trivial issues in life..
I stand firm in what I believe in..
Won't sway..

Oh anyway!!! It's finally friday!!!! I did something that surprised myself this morning.. We ran 3.2km non-stop!!! Yeah man release the potential in you! Erm.. In this case, let's just say it's the potential energy stored in the fats.. Oh and after school I actually met lao lee for consultation!! He's actually very patient! Good for me! Taught me for about 1 hr.. At a moment he was quite cute la! Feeling sleepy in the mid-afternoon and the way he talked.. was like in lala land la~ LOL!! Then he excused himself to wash his face.. HAHA.. maybe the questions I asked were no kick for him?

After a day of school, I went to... meet BIRD and PINK!!! Yeah man~ coOl~ They never fail to brighten up my days no matter how dull they are.. Pink brokethrough today!! Congrats!! =)! HAHA.. So proud of you~ lol!! We went shopping from bugis to orchard.. And I ended up not buying anything (as usual~) hahaha.. Nvm la, it's the company that matters right haha.. maybe we should make friday a ladies' night for us? HAha.. Cool~ But time always seems to pass so fast!!! =(














That condemned mee goreng.. X

That aside.. my dad n bro came and fetched me to chinatown~ nothing happening~ Same old stuff.. smaller crowd though.. and the same long queue at Mei Zhen Xiang? Ever wonder why people rush to buy the bak gua there only during cny period when it sells it whole year round.. hmmmmm... Oh ya~ My mum bought back loads of goodies.. Ok Aileen, I believe you're strong enough to resist shifting them into your room..

Great day! =) I'm already telling bird that the weekends are going to be over soon.. Aww..

School's such a toil~
Believe it or not, I'm still experiencing some post-holiday syndromes..
The sun was up today, so I walked home..
Miss the beach..
My sentosa membership card is such a waste for me.. ha. =(
Monday was Jon's bday~ I missed out so much!!! =(
Wish I was there..
Today's Sis JinLian's bday~ Yet to wish her.. hee~
It's raining again..
Mixed up weather.
Off I go..
Zzz..

Oh btw, one of the rules I set for myself this year is, to shut my mouth if nothing nice comes out of it... So... keep a 'hear' out for me.. wahaha..

wah yesterday was one long long day........ Choir was fun but i thot the spotlights were a bit too bright.. made me sleepy~ wahah..















N256~~ LOok at the big big card! Celebrated Sis Jl's bday from expo to changi airport wahaha..




















Me and cai loOking at the stationary planes.... Already planning of where to go for my post A-lvl celebration..........

What a day! Firstly bs at bro ed's house.. baby nicole kept crying!!! Hungry baby.. then chionged down on a cab for choir.. we sang parts today! And the mic was real loud.. I mean louder than usual and we could actually hear us.. the start of praise was like an explosion of energy.. WAH. shiokness. Met pink and bird after that for dinner!! =) Happiness. Bird was as usual busy with calls and smses.. and made me n pink seemed so free wahahha.. (btw i'm still thirsty even now~)
Ya that was my day~
OH YA!!!!!!! Me and pink saw bro Calvin at TM!!!!!!!!
Bird was actually with us.. but maybe too busy didn't see him wahah.. thing was he was standing just in front of her la~ LOL~ I called him and awwwwww he turned and talked to us abit. hehe.. nice voice.....
Ok and someone commented that my blogskin is too cute for me.. Maybe i should try not to add too many pictures next time?? WAHAHA.. (just kidding.)
Good night.

What a day~ The word 'sian' is written all over my face..
Anyway, don't feel like talking about it.. nothing much to say actually.
Yesterday! Was Da Ren's 20th bday! Celebrated at swensen's~ Finally can go out play wahaha..



















This is thus far the nicest picture of him. Love it!














Tsunami came..














And swept it all away~














The girlsss~ =) !














Favourite picture!!! Rare moment captured~ Wahaha.. Love it!
















Del!!! Oh btw, she's exactly 2 years younger than me! so cool la..

that's Birdy! U know what? We've known each other since Primary 5!!! Can't believe it.. 8 years! Amazing.. Wanna know my bad evil down sides, ask her.. See if she dares to tell you.. Muahah.. No la not much to say anyway LOL~~ Or ask her my many bad habits that drive her nuts. LOL~ Qing ku ni le birdy~ Trials and tribulation..

Hi dear friends, I really need you to be my cheerleaders in my final lap of jc...
I can't do it all alone...
2 is always better than 1 ya...
Sorry I have to turn some of you down sometimes when you ask me out...
But deep inside I really wish I don't have to do that...
Hope you'll understand..

Sometimes you know.. nerds can really scare me.. I am serious! After 5 days of being in their shoes, I realise it's really not easy and they are really amazing! Often I wonder how they can actually do that for so long~ Or rather for their whole live. When I look at them, I wonder what are they actually thinking. OH NOoooooooo........ Ok my imagination is running wild now.. But seriously I think all of us should try being in their shoes someday.. Wahaha.. then we will not laugh at them anymore.. Forgive me..

Man.. Guess what? I slept after 4:30 this morning! The case is still in investigation and I've blacklisted some of the suspects.. it was either 1) the green tea I drank before bed or 2) my 2 hours afternoon nap 3) the chemistry qns I did before bed 4) the happy memories that filled my mind 5) the excitement of things I'm looking forward to 6) it's friday finally 7) the combination of all.

Ironically, I was rather high today! "JJ will win the war JJ will win the war" HAHA.. My apologies to those whom I irritated. First thing in the morning, I 'boomed' Vickster from behind then I dragged yusu to run a round and then we played tennis. 2 months since I last played! Watched the 1st 3 mths students played at the new synthetic field.. throwing water bombs.. like a mini warfare. But nothing beats our flour and mud. And the rest of the day was mundane.

I don't quite sure know what happened to me recently. I think I have been mutated due to some environmental changes. voila! A neo-Aileen emerges! So ya recently have been very occupied trying to come out with some neo-Aileenism hypotheses. Like.. Survival of the nerdiest?

Haha please pardon me.

Since the first day of school, life has never been the same for me. I am so motivated by the teachers to do well. We have a new math teacher. He likes to speak chinese when teaching math and I think he should just stay that way because I couldn't quite understand his english. He is also a dynamic teacher who likes to make us laugh. He made a remarkable statement that day.. "Don't try to be a hero, heros always die first." waha (He meant don't do last minute work) I promised myself to do his work to the best I can. I want to make him proud. Today, the chemistry lecturer told us there is no Plan B in jc.. It's either you do well and go Uni or you die. With all these being said.. what else can I do sia. Oh but I also realised they are quite pessimistic.. Always talking about dying wahaha..















Shhh... HAHAHA..















OH that CUTIE yu su.. This picture was took after much practising at home wahahaha.. kidding.
She's CUTE by nature.. look at her dimples.. ya she likes to gek them out WAHAHA.. kidding.

Spent New year eve and new year day in church! What a great end and start~ God's presence was so tangible during worship, I couldn't contain my tears even on stage so don't care la let it flow.. As the song was sang, memories of the challenges I went through in 2005 flooded my mind and praise the Lord, He was never far from me in every circumstances and has brought me through it all. Pst Kong's message was awesome as well. I was filled with hope once again for the new year. Hopefully it will last me through the year.. Can't wait to get over and done with my jc daysss... Ok ya I've said that countless times. But still.. ya..~




















Happy New Year!!! *grIn*














N256 at the airport after service~ As if saying farewell to my holidays~ Wahahaha
















That's serene~ Wah nice background.














Sis JinLian and xiao mao mi~